Those love times that can't go back.

Those love times that can't go back.

This article is excerpted from the work "good time does not send" by Douban user @ Chen Xiaoca. This article is excerpted from the shortlisted work "good time does not send" in the 4th Douban Reading contest.

1.

Bai run looked at the circle of foam at the mouth of the coffee cup and thought sadly that he was going to have his birthday soon.

after this birthday, she will be 32.

how have all these years passed? it seems that I was just laying out a basket of peaches in the morning market yesterday, covered with a layer of dew, and passers-by had to stop and have a look even if they didn't buy it. Now it's good to pick a pile of five dollars at random, and you have to shout at the top of your voice.

guarding a cup of coffee and weekend afternoon sunshine, she could have been sad for a while, but the man opposite was like a heavy mortar, and it would be impolite if she kept her head down.

"my house is in the downtown area, not far from where you work. If there is nothing wrong with the company, I can also take you to and from work." Of course, if you are willing to be a full-time wife, it is also convenient to take care of Yaoyao. this child is only in the second grade and needs company when her own mother is abroad and our company is too busy. Ms. Bai, although I divorced and brought a daughter, I have everything I should have, and you don't have to have pressure to give birth. My only wish is to have someone to take care of Yaoyao. "

Bai run's eyes narrowed slightly, squeezed out a very standard smile at the corner of his mouth, and held back the Yawn he had always wanted to type. From the beginning of the conversation to the present, she looked Yao Yao's father in the eye for the first time. He was a little fat, with a puffy face and a bluish glow like fatty liver, while the lees hole in his nose was like a black hole, sucking in all the light outside the window. She couldn't help hitting the spirit, stretching out her hand and scratching her back.

"Miss Bai, are you not feeling well?" He finally stopped and looked at Bai run in surprise.

"nothing. Go on. " She quickly electrocuted and waved her hand forward. Originally, I also wanted to call a gentleman, but when she introduced herself, she was distracted, and the other person's name was not remembered at all, only that he was Yao Yao's father. She smiled while secretly scolding in her heart, Wang Caiping, you are really my own mother, this is an unparalleled and good man in your mouth.

"I've been talking for a long time, otherwise, you can start." Yao Yao's father impatiently rubbed the nose of the lees with the back of his hands and dried the water cup in front of him.

Bai run blinked and thought, this is it. So she tuned out the words she knew well and reviewed them again, and said, "Why don't we talk about hobbies? I usually like to watch movies when I'm free. How about you?"

Yao Yao's father wiped a drop of water from her mouth and said, "if you are free, you will watch some science fiction movies and so on. What kind of movies do you like?"

Bai run's eyes suddenly glowed with excitement, and her heart said that the guy was really too cooperative, so she quickly glared at her eyes and beamed:

"I don't like to watch anything else, so I like to see something scary, scary, homicidal." Like that "chainsaw", "death is coming" and so on, I have seen those series no less than ten times, and the more I watch them, the more exciting they become! Don't say, usually I don't eat very much. As long as I see blood, my appetite comes at once. I eat one more bowl of rice than usual. If I have potato chips, I can eat two cups. "

Bai run said as he waved his arm and almost stood up from the stool. Yaoyao's father opposite was able to keep calm at first, but then her face changed, holding out her hands on the edge of the table, ready to run.

"so what. Ms. Bai, I still have something to do, or that's it for today. We'll get in touch later. " With that, before waiting for Bai run to answer, Yao Yao's father picked up his bag and ran away.

Bai run looked at his dust-free back and said that it was amazing that such a stout looped leg could run out of the 110-meter hurdles. The latte in front of her was so cold that she picked it up and drank it, and immediately felt refreshed.

2.

"well, you don't like this uncle."

Bai run was so frightened by a crisp sound that he almost threw the coffee cup in his hand. Looking for a voice, I don't know when a little boy got up at the table behind him, with a round face and big eyes, slightly covered with soft brown bangs over his forehead. She recognized that this was the son of the coffee shop owner.

Bai Runle, reached out and grabbed him on the head: "you little boy, what do you know?"

"I also know that you didn't like your uncle who came here two times ago. The expression on your face is frightening. Even if you smile, you look like an old witch. It's not as nice as you smile at me now."

the smile on Bai run's face stopped abruptly, because she was very close to the real estate agency where she worked, and these blind dates were arranged by her in this coffee shop, but they all fell in the eyes of the boss's son. She asked a little sheepishly, "did you see it all?"

the little boy nodded earnestly.

she stopped talking and turned her face to the floor-to-ceiling window, which immediately reflected her appearance. This is still a good appearance, thick black eyebrows, inside double apricot eyes, if you look at it coldly, you still look like a college graduate. It is just because the muscles of the lips and cheeks are taut all the year round, like farmland hardened by a severe drought, showing a sense of desolation beyond age.

Bai run sighed that he had not smiled for a long time, the kind from the bottom of his heart.

"Auntie."

A childish crisp sound broke Bai run's mind, and she turned to him and asked him, "what's the matter?"

"Auntie, give me another one, just like that. It's beautiful."

"Hey." Bai run's heart was amused by the child, but she forced herself to keep a straight face: "Why, I'll give you a laugh, you."Don't give me any good. "

"I'll buy you a cup of coffee. That uncle didn't pay for it just now, did he?" This meal is not on me yet. "

now Bai Run couldn't help it. He grinned to the root of his ear and laughed out of breath. "how old are you, you little thing? you've learned to talk to a girl. What's your name?"

"my name is time, the time of time, the light of time." Time answered solemnly.

"Yo, that's an interesting name. Who gave it to you?"

"I don't know, hey, it's either my dad or my mom."

looking at the small appearance of time shaking hands, Bai run was happy again: "I said time classmate, no matter how to say you are a little man, keep your word." I'm so happy with you. How can you avoid my coffee money? "

as soon as she spoke, Bai Run saw the landlady coming from the bar. She might have seen her son talking to a strange woman for such a long time. She was a little worried, and she looked vigilant.

Bai Run's face immediately grew cold, turned to take out his wallet, and said to himself that he should pay quickly and leave. It would be hard to tell if the child's mother was treated as a human trafficker.

time suddenly said to her, "Auntie, let me sing you a song."

Bai run froze for a moment: "Ah?"

before she reacted, time sang and danced and danced: "you are my little apple. I can't love you too much. Spring has come to the hillside full of flowers to light up the fire of my life.". "

the landlady stopped in an instant and exclaimed at Bai run, "Oh, my God."

Bai run froze again: "Ah?!"

without waiting for Bai run to react, the landlady stepped over a few steps and cried with tears in her arms: "son, mother's good son, I knew you were fine, just like other children." Time, is it good to do this every day in the future? Will you stop scaring mom? "

Bai run completely entered the stiff state, sitting on the stool, unable to take a step at all. The landlady cried for a while, then she thought of Bai run behind her, so she turned to her and said, "I'm sorry, this lady, I don't know what to call you."

looking at the tears on her face, Bai run stuttered unconsciously: "I …". My name is Bai run. "

"Miss Bai, thank you so much, thank you so much." As she said, she let go of time and sat opposite Bailun: "how can I thank you?". By the way, today's coffee is on me. Please don't refuse. "

"No. No, I didn't do anything. " Bai run still stammered and subconsciously looked over to the time side. Unexpectedly, the little thing winked at him and ran away with a smug look.

"you don't know, this child has never been talkative and likes to answer no one." The landlady then said to Bai run, "if you go to the hospital for examination, there is nothing wrong with your voice and brain. The doctor said that you can only see a psychiatrist." His father and I are very anxious. He is not even six years old. How can such a young child have psychological problems? "

Bai run's heart thumped when he heard the word "psychological problems". Over the years, she has heard a lot of talk that if she does not fall in love or get married at this age, she must have some psychological problems. Later, even her own mother was clamoring to take her to the psychiatric department, and she didn't know how many times she had blown up about it.

"I don't think it's that serious. The child is big and clever." Although the smile on Bai run's face is squeezed out, what is said in his mouth is the truth. How can such a young child need to see a psychiatrist?

"that's what he says, but the child is always like that, and he has to look at it. He looks like a normal child in front of you today."

Bai run looked at the posture that the landlady was going to cry again, and hastened to change the subject. After a few idle remarks, the landlady, knowing that she was working near here, warmly invited her to come often to ensure that her coffee was free.

so I don't know how many times today, Bai run smiled again.

3

early in the morning, Bai Run sat down at his desk. Before he could finish his last sip of soy milk, his cell phone rang and the caller showed the words "Lafayette".

as soon as it was dark in front of Bai run's eyes, he picked up his cell phone and ran to the bathroom.

"you dead girl movie, what on earth did you say to Yao Yao's father? You see, you scared people. You just stammered with me on the phone, and you scared me into a mental illness! "

although Wang Caiping sounds like an electric drill, Bai run can't help sneering: "what did he tell you?"

"you have the nerve to ask, people praise you to the sky, saying that they are not worthy of you. Do you think your own mother is stupid? what do you say all your studies are for? don't use them in a decent place to scare people at the top of one or two! "

"do I still need something to go to school? The man was so pussy that his face looked like a pig's liver in two words. " Bai Rundu mumbled, suddenly realizing that he really shouldn't confess, and hurriedly changed his tune: "Oh, Mom, can you find someone for me in the future? you didn't see the posture yesterday. He wasn't looking for a wife. He just wanted to find a stepmother for his daughter." Come on, I'm still on duty. Let's talk about it when we get home tonight. "

as soon as she was about to hang up the phone, Wang Caiping's voice got louder: "I'm not angry if you don't say I go to work. I'm angry when I say I don't go to work. What kind of class are you in?" Bailun, do you know who you are? You have a master's degree in forensic science, but now you've gone to school in vain. You've gone to the house. "

Bai run's eyes suddenly warmed up and couldn't say a word while holding up the phone.

Wang Caiping recognized the difference on the other side of the phone and regretted her impulse.Die: "then what. Bai run, mom's mouth is fast, don't be angry. Other people don't know what you are gossiping about, but can mom not know? Isn't it all because of Lin Chang's child, but Bai run, ah, it has been six years, and it has been six years since I had a child, and I am about to go to primary school. Don't say you two are not married, even if you are married. "

"Mom, is it because you have Uncle Liu and are afraid that others will poke you in the spine and that your daughter will find a wife before she marries? My real mother, please don't have any psychological burden. Hello, I'm good, too. " Bai Runqiang swallowed and spat and turned the words aside with a smile on his face.

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"Dead girl movies can make fun of your own mother. I'm telling you, your mother, I'm a man of principle. I won't get a license with your Uncle Liu if you don't get married. It's up to you." Wang Caiping's righteous words are like a hemp rope, with a white neck itching. Once something is crowned with the name of "affection", the taste always appears strong, which makes you laugh and cry.

hung up the phone, and Bailun was paralyzed on the chair outside the bathroom, his legs trembling like sieve chaff. It is this kind of feeling again, like the ancient people said that the sink, a boulder attached to the body, kicked you into the bottomless river, unable to move, can only wait for yourself to gradually suffocate.

six years have passed. She thought that this period of time was enough to forget everything, but the memory of the injury was always amazing, and whenever she thought of it, it was like a scabbed wound torn open and blood flowed.

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